It has been kind of a strange week for me. First, my husband was gone from Monday at 4 AM to Tuesday at 10 PM, his first night away from me since we got married. It was lonely, and of course David decided to be as unhappy as possible. You know, they say kids pick up on your moods, but even though i missed Kris, i wasn't as miserable as my Spud-Bud was. Poor little guy.
Then i had a Tupperware halloween expo thing this morning, which i was freaking out about, because it was my first show that wasn't a house party. It was pretty much an open house at a community center featuring me and 6 others in direct sales. So i was nervous that not enough people would show up, and i was nervous that too many would show up...you know how it's easy to worry about every possible scenario. Well, i had bought $700 of product to sell directly today, so people could just buy it and walk out, instead of having to order. So i took hours this week pricing these giant boxes and making cute little recipe cards and organizing everything. And i think about 6 people showed up today to the boutique. i managed to sell $125, so i made in profit enough to cover the cost of room rental, but it was still disappointing, and a pain to have to haul all that Tupperware back. Luckily, my mom and Aunt showed up and were wonderful and helped me load it into my mom's car, who took it back to her house for me because she loves me and because i drive a 2001 Saturn, a tiny car with barely enough room for my son's car seat, much less that and large cardboard boxes. i'm doing another show at my local Curves where i work out in a couple weeks, though, so hopefully the rest of the stuff will sell there. Oh well. We live and learn, right? i got some contacts which will hopefully add up to future clientèle, though, and for building your new business, that's the most important thing.
i really miss my husband. He's been gone a lot this week, because when he got back from his work trip, then he worked the rest of the mornings this last week, and of course every evening, so i've only seen him when he gets home and wakes me up at about midnight, which is not a good hour for quality time for me. i feel guilty that i complain about how much he's gone, because he works so hard for our family, but it's hard not seeing him. i've gotta buck up, though, because he's really sacrificing so much and i should not bring him down for doing so.
On a cheerier note, David has had pretty good days with me the last two or so days. We're really starting to enjoy each other, and he's beginning to laugh a lot, whenever i'm silly. When i'd make faces at him before, until a few weeks ago, he'd just kind of stare at me, unless he was in a really good mood when he might smile. But now it's not very hard to get him to laugh one of those really feel-good laughs, the kind that makes you happy to hear. i am beginning to love him for who he is as a person, not just because he's my little baby.
i found out this week that two of my friends, including Mommy, Daddy, and a Sweetpea are pregnant! Congratulations! Along with another close friend of mine, they make up 3 women i know who are preggo. Two of them were pregnant at the same time i was, all of us with our first babies, and now they're having more babies! (They are also all due two weeks apart from each other.) For a couple months of summer, i was thinking seriously about having another child and i guess that would have put me on the baby train with my friends, but now i feel ok where things are at. i want to get more serious with Tupperware and do more of that, and with one child i can get out of the house in 1/2 hour, whereas i hear with two, it takes upwards of an hour, so it would be even harder to get out of the house. Yes, i think for now i do not have "baby lust", a want i'd had most of the last 5 years. It's a bit freeing. i don't have to worry about buying a minivan, or trying to afford doctor's visits on our 80/20 insurance, or the idea of possibly dealing with two children in diapers. i'm really excited for my friends and their babies, and am also glad that for once, i feel more at peace with my life just the way it is. We'll see how long this lasts. Once my friends have their babies, i'll probably be jealous of their little teeny-tinies and want another of my own. i'll keep you posted.
Well, it is 9 PM and i think i'm going to bed. It's been a long week. :)
P.S. i'm falling in love with coffee.
My brain is full of bees
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