Amidst all the summer goings-on, i appear to have somehow slipped into my third trimester. When did that happen?
i already feel a little guilty that i'm not as interested in Cadence as i was with David. She moves and is very active, but i don't notice it as much. All of my conversations don't revolve around her, the way they did when i was pregnant with David. Haven't scanned in her U/S pics yet, and missed a Dr's appointment last week because i forgot to schedule it in my phone. i rescheduled it, but didn't even feel that bad about it. (It's the super-fun glucose test, where you drink the sugary syrup liquid and wait at the Dr. for an hour. Looking forward to it tomorrow!)
The thing i worry about the most is i worry that i won't take as many pictures of her as i did of David. We took about 80 pics of him per minute when he was newer. We still take a lot of them. Will i take so many of Cadence? Will i even have the time to just stare at her, camera in hand, or will i be so exhausted that i'll miss that newborn wonderment?
i'm also worried to go through the whole newborn thing again. That time when they cry a lot and don't have a personality and need to be fed every three hours...i'm not sure that sounds like so much fun. Can i skip that? Can we jump ahead to 5 or 6 months, where she'll be smiling and sleeping through the night? But i don't want to skip all the way to crawling. i do look forward to having a stationary baby for a while.
OK, thanks for letting me get that off my chest. i know things will work out, but sometimes...it's just a little worrisome.
Oh, P.S., i'm extremely grateful that my baby worries are this trivial. There are a lot worse concerns, baby-wise, that i am spared, and i promise you i don't forget about it.
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Jess...
What you're going through is very normal (not that that makes it enjoyable!)
I went through (and still am on some levels) a lot of guilt about not spending as much time with my older girl and not giving my younger one the quality attention that I gave the first.
You'll find a balance, eventually, even if it's not what you want it to be.
I've had to remind myself over and over that I'm home with my kids and that is worth a lot even if they aren't getting my undivided attention. At least they aren't in daycare 8 hours a day.
Happy 3rd trimester! I think we'll still see plenty pics of your little girl :)
Don't worry!
At least you picked a good appointment to forget about. my one hour came back high and I just did the 3 hour one this morning- YUCK.
I have the same fear about pictures as you do, we took so many of Lexi. This pregnancy has been more painful than my first one, so I haven't been able to forget about it. he he. Seems like it's dragging. It's not until I read your blog that I remember how far along we are! I'll be 30 weeks tomorrow.
I'm sure we'll both take plenty of pictures of baby #2. :)
Mallory can't wait to meet Cadance, her future BFF. I was just talking to Josh about the two of them tonight. My guess is you didn't spend as much time shopping for David as you have for her. Pink is much more fun then blue, and you have a lot of pink.
As Bobby McFaron said, "Don't worry, be happy." You're having a baby! You'll be a great mommy to her too.
Wow - you have posted everything I feel now. My guilt, my worries and all.... it happens. You're normal, it's normal - we're normal. It'll be ok hon.
So you have pretty much posted every worry I have about the idea of a second child. Glad to hear I'm not the only one:)
Sounds familiar to me. I have said that guilt increases exponentially as you add children to the family. I try and not think about all the things I should be doing and insted keep track of what I am doing. When I put down the basket of unfolded laundry and sit to read a book I put a mental tally mark in my "Atta-Momma" Book. When I play a game rather than read blogs which I will do in one minute I get another tally. Tally's can never be taken away. Ever
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