i heart God.

Yesterday was one of those days where i felt like God was speaking to me. i'm sure He speaks to me much more than i know, but yesterday it was like He was grabbing me by the arm and saying "Hey, hey, do ya see Me? Guess what? I've got something just for you today!"

First, i was on my way to church and a little cranky, as i have to get about 2 hours earlier than normal on Sundays. But as i turned off of my street, i saw the sky, looking like this.

That light on the right is the sun, but that thing in the middle looked kind of like a rainbow or some beautiful vertical light beam thing. Anyway, i was thankful for my digital camera that i randomly had in my purse. The picture obviously could not capture exactly what it looked like, but i'm just letting you know that it was a special sight for me and it made me feel like the day would be special.

Then, this past week at church, Pastor Joel was talking about how people's faiths are impacted the most at home. i was a bit distracted during the sermon, because he kept going off on tangents about how God is like Aretha Franklin, and later how God is like the garbage man, but the main point of the sermon was that i must model God for my children. i haven't been reading the Bible to David as much lately, because he wants to hold the book himself and would tear the pages, but i will start again with that. If God is a part of our daily routine, i believe our lives would change.

i am God to my children. It is very humbling, you know? i am the person David looks up to for guidance and all the answers. He blindly follows what i say, and it is my job to little by little turn his faith towards God. It's a big responsibility, and i am already a failure. Thankfully, God knew that i would suck it up, and He designed forgiveness for reasons just like that.

We have sinned against you.... by what we have done, and by what we have left undone.

i love the Lutheran liturgy. It is teaching me so much every week. Yes, we say the same thing every time, but it's got so many layers. i thank God for bringing me the liturgy at this time in my life, rather than earlier when its meaning might have gotten lost in the monotony.

Anyway, it is my goal to feed our bodies with better food, as they are vessels of the Holy Spirit, and our souls with more substantial content. God has so much to teach me, and if i'm open to Him, i will be a good example to my son and those around me.